better days

things are improving with that last issue.

also, and completely unrelated, i think my relationship with my parents is improving with age. their age. my age.

i saw my dad unexpectedly the other morning. i don't know why the expression on his face affected me so much. i hope i looked pleased to see him, because i was. he looked happy, and i loved that. he was standing right in front of me and i missed him so much. it's hard to explain.

anyway, my mom has been sending me random texts and i love it. i want to save every single one. i know it's a big deal for her to actually use the common functions on her phone.

i wish my family wasn't so busy. lunch once a week with them would be grand.

my worst fear

i can't fucking believe this is happening to me.