i'm not gonna lie

it's hard.

it's hard not to think of you.

everything about this is hard.

maturity

i don't think it's the alcohol talking,

but i may be ready for an adult relationship.

i need to at least try.

too many adolescent habits.

inherent nature

human cravings are insatiable.

just look at me. guilty!

blood

why is it so hard to be compassionate towards my parents?

give me the needle

i think i may have found an answer,
something to cover up the scars.

i think the pain of the procedure would be far less excruciating than the pain i have lived with, the pain i still live with, and the pain i will surely live with.

drastic measure are okay.
i have to cope. i need this.